T&D and Spontaneity

Saturday night, I was rewarded with a blowjob tease and denial… 😀

I’m currently not caged at the moment, balls are healing up, I think I either need more gap or a slightly larger base ring. I was feeling frisky Sunday and had Goddess sit on my lap while we were netflixing. I was kissin on her, grabbing her neck like she likes, breathing softly in her ear while kissing it…. Needless to say she grabbed a condom. Off to the bed! We had sex for almost an hour and I struggled to keep from having an orgasm, but… At the end while she was having a really big orgasm… I was getting close again and I pulled out real fast… (condom of course, no worries there) And her last moan was so hot that I still came despite halting stimulation.  Ya’ll know an orgasm without permission adds 7 days…. so now it’s 21 days until i’m allowed to have a proper orgasm and enjoy it :-p

Did a lot of physical labor yesterday after that, sore all over today.

Thanks for stoppin in 🙂



The quest continues… (Warning, RANT)

So as you may remember, Goddess is looking for a bull. This has been a frustrating process. I’ll detail my thoughts as they come, this won’t be organized or probably make any kind of sense, this is one of my rants or ramblings or whatever you want to call it. Thoughts will be followed by helpful advice in Italics.

So many fucking entitled pricks out there. You think that just because you got a big dick means you automatically have permission to be NASTY to my Goddess/Wife? Fuck you. Apparently you don’t have enough blood to operate that brain and that cock at the same time.

Be respectful. Don’t be an aggressive asshole that gives off the rapist vibe. I can’t tell you how many messages I’ve read that have been sent to Goddess where they don’t even attempt to respect her wishes, or even ask for consent to begin to talk about (in this case) nasty shit. Goddess loves dirty talk with the best of them, but she can’t just fuck any random stranger, she has to like them as a person before they can enter the cave of wonders. 

So if you can’t even hold a normal fucking conversation, what makes you think you’re worthy of having sex with her? Conversation is over half of what makes everything good. Do you honestly think that lines like “I have a massive dik an would fuk you so good” , “I’d love to jam my cock in your ass”, “I’m a dom, get on your knees” are really good conversation starters?

Show her that you’re not a fuck-tard and use your words big boy! Impress her with your mental whit. Place words in a good order and try to use good spelling, use full and complete sentences. It’s not rocket science but for fucks sake it seems like for most of the guys that have messaged her, it is. 

For guys that actually get past the first few days of conversation, they act like it’s too much effort to TRY and have a normal conversation. As I’ve said, She needs a friendship before you’re gonna get ANYTHING.  We had this one very promising potential, but as soon as our schedules conflicted, he gave up and seemingly lost interest. Then he made a joke that was an instant turn off about Goddesses work…

Yeah, because begging for free shit from a sex worker is REALLY gonna turn her on and get you somewhere with her. We aren’t asking you to buy her content, and for fucks sake, if you wanna see sexy stuff, all ya gotta do is follow through, act interested, and be respectful. We’re obviously asking too much here. You’d get things that she wouldn’t even produce for sale, so where’s your logic in implying because you got a big dick you should get shit for free? 

Guys can’t handle rejection apparently. One dude went as far as to say some dumb shit like “I GET WHAT I WANT” “WHY DON’T YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH OR I’LL MAKE YOU” “DO YOU LIKE SUBMITTING? YOU WILL WHEN I’M DONE WITH YOU” For one, She’s not just a piece of meat. That’s rapist territory and super abusive. WHAT THE FUCK!

If she doesn’t like what you’re talking about, respectfully move on. Don’t get all dick hurt because she didn’t find you attractive, doesn’t want anyone to dominate her (Besides, she’s the dom), or any number of reasons why you wouldn’t be a good fit. Be a fucking man and move on. Don’t threaten her, Don’t tell her you know what town she lives in, I might be submissive to her, but i’ll fuck you up. ESPECIALLY if you threaten her/us. You better be able to run faster than 2500 feet per second. (That’s around 1700 miles per hour) 

If you don’t have any intention in following through with your “Game” then why the fuck did you message her in the first place?

I thought time wasters were only a thing in sex work?! Don’t even bother if you have no intention in keeping your word. 


In short, even though I’m a submissive, I’d probably make a better bull than 75% of you dumb-asses out there. I’m respectful, I keep my appointments, I wait for consent to talk dirty, and I probably fuck better than you too. I know not all of you are like this, but this entitled male shit has to stop. You gotta earn it just like anyone else would. I’m glad she’s set her standards so high, it prevents the common think-with-your-dick basic guy from ever knowing what heaven feels like.

I do apologize for the rant, but I’ve got nowhere else to vent about it.  Carry on and stay kinky!


The deed is done!

In all my bearded wonderment!

So I’m mobile and this won’t be very long but I just HAD to share! I’m officially collared 🙂

Goddess had me get down on my knees next to the bed and she kissed me, then slid the collar into place before inserting the lock pin, and clicked it shut. She said “Now you have something to show anyone who’s kink friendly that your owned.”

It’s surreal, I never thought that one day I’d end up wearing a collar 24/7.

Not that anyone will, but leave a like or a comment below!

Follow up to “Whoops”

As promised, I figured that I would detail last nights activities.

After dinner, during our Netflix time (it’s a normal thing to watch Netflix during/after dinner) Goddess was just in a dress with no panties. She looked so fucking beautiful, I couldn’t resist touching on her. After a little bit she spread her legs so that I had easier access, and I fingered her with two fingers 😉 while she rubbed her clit. She had a nice strong orgasm and thanked me, saying it was nice. We continued to watch some Netflix for a bit, and then decided we’d go to the bedroom to cuddle and talk.

Here lately we’ve been going to the bed to have our nightly pillow talk, this is usually the time that I ask about her days conversations and ask about the people who’ve attempted to message her (Goddess is VERY picky, I have no idea how I got so fucking lucky lol) We were talking about our day and I had asked how the conversation went with one of her potential bulls was going. Things were going well, and she was obviously getting turned on again, because she started to caress my body as we talked. Soon she was stroking me again, and I got rock hard. I sat up, grabbed my hood and began to unlace it enough to slide it on. She helped me put it on, it seemed she made it extra tight this time because the hood felt like a second skin.  I laid back and we continued to talk, only this time Goddess was straddling me. We talked about how she loves how I look in my hood, bound and helpless. I reminded her that the under the bed restraints have been very hot, and that they weren’t being used at the moment 😉

Goddess smirked and obliged me, cuffing me to the bed and pulling tight on the straps so that I had even less wiggle room than normal. After I was secure, she began rubbing against me like I’ve described many times already, She has been warming up to the idea of anal, and one of her favorite things to do recently is rub the head of my cock on her tight little asshole.  Not that i’m huge down there, but her ass is so tight that the head of my cock can’t even slide in without a LOT of work. So I feel like this is her way of training herself. It gets me so close to cumming, a lot of times I have to ask her to stop for a few minutes. She giggles at this as she said “Oh, You’re gonna cum already? Just from rubbing my tight little asshole against you?”

After several times of bringing me just to the edge, only to deny me (Plus, I wasn’t asking for permission because I knew I wasn’t supposed to cum.) There was a moment where all the friction was beginning to feel like sand paper on my cock. I asked for some lube and the jelly cock ring. She was more than happy to allow it, and rubbing with lube felt much better for both of us. She decided she wanted to tease me about how a bull was going to fill her up, so she straddled me, letting me inside her. She sat all the way down, then said “That’s as deep as you go, It’s not even close to filling me up.”

This kind of dirty talk turns me on to no end, I thought for sure that’d make me cum but I somehow held my composure. After a little bit she started to ride up and down my shaft, enjoying herself. Using me for her pleasure. I was getting too worked up, and I told her so. She Slid off REAL fast… FUCK. The tightness of the entrance of her wet amazing pussy sliding over the head of my cock pushed me past the edge. I came all over myself, and it was a ruined orgasm. I didn’t actually get the pleasure of a normal orgasm, and I stayed hard for quite a while after it. I also cried a little bit as I knew this would add yet ANOTHER week to my punishment.

We got cleaned up and I joked, I said your doing this on purpose… She smiled and said “Well, You DO have an interest in permanent chastity… What’s a month when you want to go 24/7.”

I replied, “I don’t want to never be able to take it off, I’m just down for really long lock ups, but not until you have a reliable bull, I’d hate for that amazing sex to go to waste. It feels like you’re just using me to strengthen your muscles… You tryin to get ready for a bull?”

“Yes, I am!” Goddess said with a laugh.

So i’m an exercise appliance 😀 Cool, I love being objectified anyway lol. I just need to learn NOT to cum without permission or I’ll just end up never having a normal orgasm. While ruined keeps everything in working order… I’m already not going to be able to give her Birthday sex now because of my lack of stamina. Guess a bull will have to stand in for that one 😉



So I just earned myself another freakin week of denial. At this rate every tome Goddess teases me I end up failing miserably lol.

I’ll blog about it in the morning!

Handy iOS app called “Days Since”

I keep track of all my events as shown above.



So, I mentioned previously that Goddess ordered me a collar.

I’m SO excited for it to arrive. It should get here by Tuesday before my trip on Wednesday. I’m anxious about wearing it in public, while it’s one of those things that is obvious as fuck to the people who are kinky, most people will just assume its some kind of necklace or something (I hope)

Part of me wants the collaring to be a big deal, but part of me also just wants it on, so that I can accept the fact that it’s not coming off, it’s permanent for all intents and purposes, and that my anxiety will have to take a back seat to necessity. Goddess doesn’t need yet another thing to remember to have me do, so in a way, this will help us both. She won’t have to remember to have me put my collar on after i’m home for the day, and I won’t have to worry about taking one off lol.

In short, I’m super fucking excited because my collar will appear vanilla enough to not raise too many questions to the average person, but people who are kinky will automagically know what it’s for. It’ll show that i’m a collared pet, and Goddess even mentioned how sexy it’ll be when her potential bull see’s it too. I got shy when she said that but I know she does these things because she loves me, not because she wants to degrade or humiliate me (to a point haha)

This is what my collar will look like, black lock and all. Ring of Steel makes some of the best looking seamless collars I’ve ever seen. I hope that the owner of the site doesn’t mind me using the image, all credits and ownership of the photo go to Vad Farkas, you can find these amazingly crafted and valued collars here -> RingofSteel.net


Painting pictures with words ;)

I just gave Goddess the most evil idea… I should really stop lol.

There was some typical morning banter between us, I told her stop she was gonna make me hard… Some reason I didn’t get the mood swing after my orgasm last night, I’m thankful for it, but i’m still really really horny.

I painted her a picture with words. I said “Ooo, I have an idea for a really long torture session.”

Imagine me, hooded, gagged, and cuffed to the bed, taken a Viagra, and you tease me for a bit before setting the wand on the absolute lowest setting it will go.

We use a heavy duty dimmer to add to the two settings the wand has already

The wand will have the masturbation sleeve on it, i’ll be wearing a condom of course. And you leave me like that for hours.

wand sleeve
This thing is EVIL.

She chuckled and said “Yeah, if you could last that long…” I smirked and replied, “I probably couldn’t, i’d end up earning months of punishment time….”

With a sparkle in her eye, she commented, “Hrmm, Perhaps.”